The Reason

I'm not a perfect person,
As many things I wish I didn't do,
But I continue learning,
I never meant to do those things to you,
And so I have to say before I go,
That I just want you to know...

I've found a reason for me,
To change who I used to be,
A reason to start over new,
and the reason is you.

I'm sorry that I hurt you,
It's something I must live with everyday,
And all the pain I put you through,
I wish that I could take it all away,
And be the one who catches all your tears,
Thats why I need you to hear...

I've found a resaon for me,
To change who I used to be,
A reason to start over new,
and the reason is You...
~ By Hoobastank
Simply WOW!

intense thoughts

Well, i happen to think a lot these days during my bike rides from office to home and vice versa..a lot of intense thinking infact! I enjoy it because thats the only time i devote to myself and my thoughts. The journey takes about half an hour one way ..so essentially its about an hour of intense thinking per day..one hour just for myself..I came up with so many different analogies, different solutions , different approaches i should take that i am really surprised(rather elated) !!
For example, i came up with this co-relation between life and road the other day..life is essentially a one-way with no end. When you are on the road for the first time, you falter. But with experience , you grow to overcome your fear. Vehicles are your opportunities to reach your destination faster and not everyone is blessed with a vehicle(could call it as the 'luck' factor in life). Vehicles are not the only way to reach your destination. There are other things like gas for your vehicle, energy within you to ride, time factor etc. All these things can be related to hardwork, determination and doing the right things at the right time in life. The people on the road are friends,peers, well-wishers you meet in your journey. You may get along well with them or might end up having a brawl(as is the case while driving on the road). When more than one person shares the same goal as yours, thats when a traffic jam is created. Ultimately the smartest one gets his way across. Potholes and speedbreakers are the pitfalls and troubles in your life. With experience, you learn to handle these gracefully. well..i could go on and on..
Talk about an idle mind on the road :-)

Attitude ..hmmm

this is one of my favourite topics! well, i came across this weird description of someone on orkut..'i am so and so with a simple attitude.' Now..how can someone qualify their attitude as simple? not only that, can someone please define 'simple attitude' for me? No offense here..but is it really possible to say that i am someone with a simple attitude towards life?have you ever come across someone who loves to have a complex attitude (if there is something like that) and believes they have it? i have only heard of positive and negative attitude...well maybe if i extrapolate, i can say that this person doesnt take too many risks and is happy with simple things in life..again i maybe wrong!
On the same lines, i would share a quote here which i come across a lot (almost everyday)- Attitude is contagious...Is yours catching?

why blog?

Recently i was talking to one of my friends about blogging and then he asked me "why blog? if you want to write something for yourself, why not compose it in a mail and save it.." Though i think i defended myself successfully, this kinda got me thinking.
well i started writing (or thats what i would like to call it :-)) for entirely different reasons. I thought it would be a good forum for essays and improving vocab for an MBA aspirant (long back then)..and then slowly i started realizing the power of blogging. Though i started this entirely for myself to capture my thoughts running at the back of my mind, i began to enjoy reading my previous posts. It was like a mirror of my own mind. It might be a simple experience or thought for somebody who is reading it.. but for me it is like a re-run.. showing a different perspective and reminiscing..giving a deeper insight as to what i could have done better given the same situation at this point of time..sometimes your mind is not clear as to what it wants and i found writing at that point of time helps a lot! it ,sort of, sets things clear because when you write, you try to write the right things...
I would be lying if i say that i dont write for others to read...or atleast that i dont write with the hope of others reading it..its next to impossible..if you think blogging is a one way communication, then you are highly mistaken..you are talking to someone and he is listening to you(by reading your post)...whether reading that post makes a difference to him is a different question..so 'hope' is definitely a motivation factor..it is in fact the ultimate killer and the reason why people think blogging is better than composing a draft and saving it.
But as always, sustenance is the key to anything!

Updated!!

I finally found time to update my flickr with pictures of my recent pilgrimage trip in Karnataka. have a look when you get time and make sure you leave your comments in there..

Moods..

Have you ever wondered how many different moods a man can be in? happy, sad, fear,anxiety, anger, disgust, frustration etc. Mood is nothing but a state of mind. So what exactly causes this change in the state of mind? A common belief is that chocolate lifts your spirits up or listening to a peppy song puts you in a good mood... When the change is in the state of mind, why is it difficult for the mind to control itself..as in why is it difficult(i wouldnt say impossible here) for someone to go into a happy mood from a depressed state rather than wait for external factors to influence him? How come the external factors (say a friend consoles him) influence him to such an extent that he is able to come out of his depressed state easily? the bottomline is why do external factors make such a big impact on us when controlling the state of mind is in our control..(food for thought)
watch out for more cranky posts like these from me :-)