atlast!!

I realized that i should remove pessimism from my blog...looking back, i would say 50-60% of the posts have been either complaints or looking at the worse side of my life!! i decided i am going to look beyond all these things and stay positive..it definitely keeps me going..
last week i had too many things happening -both professionally and personally and thats when i was almost at the edge and a little more push i would have tripped and fallen...i am really thankful to have come out of that and now i realize i dont have many things happening :-)
or atleast i am happy with the way things are right now...i like to keep myself busy..do many things at once..i like it when many people approach me for my help..somewhere it makes me feel important and i feel like putting in more effort to make things better for them..i think a little bit of selflessness is required to feel good..
anyway,i just re-read the post and saw that nothing would make sense to anybody else except me ..which in a way is good :-)

crap

happiness eludes me,
tiredness is all over me,
stress consumes me,
this is me at this particular moment...
the past week has been sort of a roller coaster ride. A mix of emotions, mental and physical stress, high expectations..what else can i say!!i long for a happy ending to all these..i am still looking for a beautiful rainbow at the end of this storm..a rainbow which would bring in all the colors and zeal required in my life.is it my perception or is it really happening to me? am i correct by hoping for the better or should i be prepared for the worst? i have never been able to answer this question myself...

Monday blues

Today can easily be counted as one of the worst days of my life...no sleep last night, no electricity at home and a heavy downpour in bangalore..rather i should have worded it as due to heavy downpour in bangalore, there was no electricity at home and thus no sleep last night!! doesnt matter now..the last thing i want to look at is grammar!!
i got up at 9:15 for work which is miserably late..managed to get ready by 10:15..rode about 6 kms(my office is about 7 kms from home) only to realize i forgot to carry my office laptop! damn..$#$#^$%#%*&^(^(*&%..after cursing myself a million times, i took a U-turn to be surrounded by endless traffic..it took me another 45 minutes to get home..picked up my laptop and started to ride to office again..i think everyone in the world ganged up to rage a war against me today as i was caught in every damn bloody traffic signal..with no one to blame, i meekly rode all the way when it started to drizzle..i was praying to God silently asking him to postpone the rain for atleast 15 minutes..i think God heard me and it kinda stopped once i reached 6 kms (the same spot where i remembered about my lappy).. and then it happened!! a guy on a bike rode his bike like it was a ferrari through slush and a second later, i saw that all that slush was on my pants..grrrrrrrrrrr..
I somehow managed to sail through the whole day trying not to fall asleep at my desk...i thought i should definitely blog this before i forget..i am sure i will have a good laugh when i go through this much much later :-)
PS: I am planning to blog everyday...i hope i do it!

growing growing and growing up

well..i know its been almost a year since my last post..work kept me really busy in the past year..growing old is tough..hmmphh(with a huge sigh on my face!)
everytime i meet my niece, i sooo envy her..she is in upper kinderGarten and has a perennial smile on her face! i have never seen her with a sigh(except when she doesnt get to eat kurkure)..her only tension in life is to watch Pogo!! Her homework is writing ABC..and reading rhymes..
now who wouldnt want to switch places with her? why is it that we always want to grow up in our childhood and fulfill our dreams of becoming something, study hard during teenage..and go to college..and when you finally achieve what you always wanted, you end up wanting to be a small child, waiting to be pampered and have no tensions in life!! life really is a full circle...
i think i should stop here before it gets too heavy for a friday evening ;-)
happy weekending!

something to ponder over..

Acceptance is not submission; it is acknowledgment of the facts of a situation. Then deciding what you're going to do about it.
-- Kathleen Casey Theisen

Now, Do you accept that one?

Girl Effect!!

Do watch this video- http://www.girleffect.org/
It could change the way you are today...

Hope..

There is hope at the end of the rainbow... :)
Courtesy- an email forward that i received today!